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25731. iiibbb - 10/27/2009 3:27:52 PM I feel pretty exposed giving up a good job for this endeavor. It is really hard to talk to people about what's been happening. I have a hard time talking to one of my mentors about this situation, especially now, because I'm not sure if he's going to think that I've thrown things away. I have no momentum right now.
My only real job opportunity at present are some consulting opportunities once I acquire a few certifications.
But what do I do if her job blows up now? What if I just get into a new job and her deal melts down?
I hate feeling like this is all out of control.
My wife once said that I was risk-adverse... that stung. She asks sometimes how soon I'm going to have a job... I'm going to be lucky when I can cobble something together... and it may very well prove to be a good change for me, but I have some re-tooling to do. If I were a lesser person I might be screaming at her at this point. 25732. Wombat - 10/28/2009 3:02:44 AM Keep yer chin up and keep pluggin' away. 25733. iiibbb - 10/28/2009 3:30:10 PM Developments...
She's still not ready to talk about it, but three things were revealed to me today
1) She said that it's been bad enough that she's considered career change (although I think this is purely emotional). Basically a bunch of things have been going wrong and her boss has blamed her (this I don't understand because P is not a decision maker, she's a statistician... her job is providing a clear picture from which to make decisions... her ability to do this is only as good as people describing the problem to her).
2) She admits that hindsight being 20/20 she should've tried harder in Mississippi. Of course hindsight is hindsight... and there are plenty of things that would've remained plenty hard if we'd stayed (e.g. health care). I told her we can only make decisions based on information at the time. I'm glad that if we find ourselves in a Mississippi-type situation she'll probably have a little more perspective.
3) She said that whatever is going on between her and her boss, her boss has at least stated she wants to reconcile... P said that such olive branches have been extended before... but I still see this as a good sign for at least making this situation livable. I still don't have a full picture of what's happening between them, so I don't want to guess. From my limited picture I think this is a case of neither of them quite understanding what the other does. P's a statistician first, ecologist second. There are some basic things she's not going to just know. Her ability to do a job depends mostly on how well it's described to her; most ecologists IMHO suck at this because they so often get caught up in minutiae. I'm not sure her boss really has a full appreciation on the powerful tools P brings to the table.
I hope I can give her some good advice. It has been said to me one of my hidden talents in the workplace is working with difficult personalities. Whether I can pass any of this on to my wife remains to be seen. I think both of them are going to have to extend themselves a bit to correct this... unfortunately the boss has a husband who's got a terminal disease, and P is pregnant and worried about my job-situation. 25734. judithathome - 10/30/2009 6:53:08 PM I hope I can give her some good advice.
You more than likely can...whether she takes it is a different matter. 25735. alistairConnor - 10/31/2009 12:59:03 AM I have discovered the joys of relationships as a combat sport over the last couple of years. My first marriage failed, in large part, because we were too scared to fight.
My girlfriend has been fending me off for the past few days. Making me feel like a visitor, while insisting that nothing is wrong. I recognised that as a sign that she's got major worries. That's her way : when there's trouble, she rolls herself up like a hedgehog. In those circumstances, I want to be close to her, and help, or at least provide support. But she wants to solve her problems on her own.
Today I came home at lunchtime to pick a fight with her. So we ended up having a frank discussion of the various issues. We solved nothing, but we both feel better for it. And we are close again. 25736. judithathome - 10/31/2009 10:56:38 PM That's her way : when there's trouble, she rolls herself up like a hedgehog.
This is a lovely descriptive phrase...it says it all.
You oughta write a book, Alistair. ;-) 25737. alistairconnor - 11/1/2009 5:06:30 PM Then perhaps I will, Judith.
At Webfeet's suggestion, I'm reading David Lodge. Quite enjoying it, but at first I found him irritatingly derivative. Until I realised that the author he reminded me of was me.
She stands before him, a naked goddess. Small, round breasts with pink, pointed nipples. A slender waist, broad hips, and gently curving belly. A tongue of fire at her crotch.
Well, I ask you.
Also, I came across a novel on the internet yesterday, self-published, friend of a friend via Facebook. It's about a kid in New Zealand forming a punk band in the early 80s, so it has a number of themes which interest me. I enjoyed the book, but it makes me wonder if it can interest a general audience. I think one has to write from one's roots, and one needs to be an experienced author before attempting subjects that one hasn't actually had direct experience of. But transcending the specific and tending towards the universal is the thing, the test of the true writer. 25738. judithathome - 11/3/2009 12:07:15 AM Alistair, just write, for cripe's sake.
David Lodge interested me at first but c'mon...everyone who writes is derivitive...you can find whisps of any author from "before" in anything written today.
Things have changed in the ways people read, in the ways people view movies and TV and friggin' life...this is not the same literary scene as it was back in the day. (And back in the day is swiftly becoming LAST WEEK.)
You have a knack for economy of description...that's a valuable assest in these times of texting and fast-paced interpesonal relationships.
Jump on it, man! 25739. alistairconnor - 11/3/2009 11:33:46 PM Thanks Judith. Your encouragement means a lot to me. 25740. iiibbb - 11/10/2009 6:36:22 AM Name me a cheese that has a medium firmness like Swiss... but a creamy mildness like Danish Havarti. 25741. alistairConnor - 11/10/2009 9:42:24 AM Don't get me started. I don't hold with foreign cheeses, myself.
Try Beaufort, or Abondance
 25742. iiibbb - 11/10/2009 3:12:46 PM I love cheese.... I could never be too provincial about it. 25743. iiibbb - 11/10/2009 3:13:17 PM Except processed cheese... but that doesn't count. 25744. iiibbb - 11/10/2009 5:33:02 PM Thanks for the suggestions... 25745. wabbit - 11/12/2009 3:05:11 AM
Happy Veteran's Day! 25746. iiibbb - 11/12/2009 3:43:52 AM Great video 25747. alistairConnor - 11/12/2009 9:41:43 AM So, a few weeks ago she was irritable, distant, something was wrong but her explanations were not convincing. There was something else going on.
Eventually she spat it out : her former boss (everyone assumed they were lovers at the time, but they weren't, she says) wants to hire her again, to run his operation in Casablanca. Very good pay and everything. It's obvious that she's been thinking seriously about it.
I was somewhat panicked by the idea. It would be an elegant solution to a number of her difficulties... including our relationship? Could I get a job there? What about my kids? etc.
Yesterday, she's joyful, radiant. She tells me she has until tomorrow to give her final answer. OK, I say. I'll stop working, I'll be a writer. There's a daily flight from Lyon, my daughters can come for weekends. I'm only half joking, and she knows it.
I'll stay with you, she says. i.e. the decision is mine. We don't need to discuss it formally; we both know what that means. We'll stick with the set of difficulties we know. 25748. iiibbb - 11/12/2009 3:35:25 PM You did see the mathematical Women = Evil proof that I posted in the slow thread? 25749. alistairconnor - 11/12/2009 5:05:34 PM Yes, I loved that.
But it doesn't equate for us... for a start, she now earns more than I do, and I can see a time coming when my salary will be relatively marginal.
For me, it's more like time squared.
Money can't buy me love. But perhaps it can buy me time? 25750. iiibbb - 11/19/2009 5:43:00 AM I got a 9 point deer this morning. It's my biggest to date.
I had a pretty frustrating first few days of the season. It has been very warm. Deer don't move when it's warm; they have their winter coats and just don't need to. This morning it was cold and windy. I was leaving for home at 8:30, and shot the deer about 8:15...
I did get to see some cool stuff this weekend: a mess of turkey, and a squirrel who did some ninja move against a hawk when it dove on him and lived to tell the tale. It was pretty cool to see.
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